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Life in Denial
  • Artist: Bijan James
  • UPC: 884502395365
  • Item #: SRD239536
  • Genre: Rap/Hip Hop
  • Release Date: 3/2/2010
  • This product is a special order
  • Rank: 1000000000
Price: $16.76
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Life in Denial on CD

Bijan on 'Life In Denial'. Taken from The name says it all really. Actually I don't know what I'm doing here. I've brainstormed for a title that leaves no room for explanations or misinterpretations. Aaaand yet: here I am...explaining. Ok, when I listen to a record, I have certain expectations towards it. I like to think of an album as a habitat for an overall atmosphere, exuding a certain mood from the first second on. If you're exhausted after a long day at work for example and you just feel like listening to some music, you don't want to go through picking out your favorite tracks! You want to put on the LP and just let it play - A record that suits your mood. When I put on a Anthony Hamilton or Kaye-Ree record I can just throw it in and let it run it's course. I can even enjoy a "Get Rich or Die Trying" album for the simple reason that it doesn't play any mood-interruptions, if you know what I mean. Life In Denial is the record I always wanted to write. So after having the idea for the album number one was, I wanted to avoid the "let-me-throw-some-songs-together-to-a-LP" method and tackle the challenge of writing songs that fit the album concept and yet are solid enough to be independent from one another. I started writing the first songs in February 2008 when I was just about to close a dull and aimless chapter. It was then when I became aware of that my state of depression had actually taken a lot longer than I thought it had and could have been a lot shorter if I just had let sadness happen. Humans (especially men) have great issues when it comes to being weak and vulnerable. When something bad happens we like to understate the issue and drink, party, smile, f***, and laugh all that much harder, which is poison to the aching soul and just lengthens the process of grief after all. Accepting the state you are in is the first step towards happiness and the sooner you do the quicker you get to move on. The record's working title was "Thaw" at first, taken from the album's homonymous last track which was one of the first songs. But after I decided not to write an album about depression itself and focus more on the process of getting out of that state, "Thaw" just wasn't good enough anymore. The new title held more space for other topics as well like not appreciating what you've got and wasting your time with miserableness; denying the love and care music deserves and producing stuff just for the sake of popularity or because it brings you a lot of money; not giving in to love and not believing in it's existence. All this is life in denial. Not seeing the true and so-obvious-it's-almost-ridiculous beauty of life itself. The album is a compilation of stories that often reflect my own experiences (surprise!) in a very ironic way. It's no finger-pointing record that tells you what you should or shouldn't be doing. Quite the opposite really: Like most artists I'm an egoistic and egocentric one and write songs almost exclusively for myself really, in a selfish and typical self-treating way. What really then defines the beauty and fun I get out of this is people actually being able to relate to the issues I state. It is truly unbelievable! Secondly there was my musical drive! After years of being a MC and a producer I finally believe to have found my niche, which I casually like to call 'Casual Hip-Hop'. Smooth, lyrical, melodic, humorous, cynical, melancholic, exciting and a bit of Pop-music. I think that describes it best. It's music for open-minded people, for outside-the-box thinkers, for fun-havers, for heart-brokens and -breakers, for...well...Casual Hip-Hop listeners... i guess... *cough*. Although I like to believe that a lot of non-Hip-Hoppers can enjoy this kind of music as well. (My friends and family all hate rap-music and never really liked what I did. Somehow they can vibe to this one... or just blowing sugar up my arse.) I must admit though that there is a lovely side-effect to this album. In a way it is like killing two birds with one stone to me really. Men's problems with not showing feelings (you see there's an obvious structure throughout this report) and not being vulnerable is caused by the silliest of emotions called pride. As some of you may know, said pride and the aforementioned 'men issues' are often found in hard and tough Hip-Hop today, so I find it slightly amusing and a little bit cheeky to put out a Hip-Hop record in a soft songwriting style discussing exact these issues. Ha! bJ PS: Buy the album.